Pursuit of Happiness
I’m back again after a short hiatus. Today I feel like blogging. Just now while driving home from work my mind was dictating the words to myself as if on autopilot. I don’t remember all that was dictated. But I do know that I want to tell you about the pursuit of happiness.
Last night, I’d watched ‘the Pursuit of Happyness‘ starring Will Smith and son, Jaden Smith. I didn’t have a box of tissue handy throughout the movie, so I ended up using my sleeves during those moments of intense deep emotions. The story based on real life had touched me greatly. Even as a woman, I could feel for Will’s character. The pain of having to sacrifice for your loved ones.. I understood that very much. I also understand how frustrated his wife (character) must have felt at her husband’s lack of income and ability to bring back the dough.
My husband watched the movie and he could see himself in Will’s character. My mom who lives a couple of miles away watched the same movie and she associated it with how absolutely hard it is to find a job. We all watched the same movie but attached different emotions and situations to it. I find that to be rather amusing.
As for my pursuit of happiness… I have one to achieve this year..oh no.. actually more that one come to think of it. I have 3 goals to achieve in May and one in June 2008. My pursuit is also another someone’s pursuit. To think that someone’s happiness could actually depend on you is a heavy burden to carry. I hate to say I’ve become used to it because that wouldn’t be telling the whole truth. I guess it’d be fair to say that I feel rather uncomfortable. But at this moment in time, it’s a responsibility I must carry.
If someone’s happiness depends on you, could you actually make someone truly happy? If someone depended so much on you for his happiness what kind of person would he be? What kind of person would you be? Very unhappy or pretty much exhausted because you’d constantly have to check up on each other, one reporting and the other giving instructions as to what would make him happy.
As much as I love psychology, these matters of the heart and mind leaves me pretty confused. Sometimes I don’t know what to expect or feel so in the end feel just plain numb. And that’s not too good a feeling. I am a positive person. I want to feel positive all the time. I want to only depend on myself for my own happiness. Why wait for someone else to make it happen for you when you can make it happen for yourself more than twice faster and make yourself more than twice the times happier.
I love me.. I care for me.. Allah the Al-mighty, protect me and my loved ones. It is only you Allah the all Merciful that I can depend on..
I watched the movie twice and loved it! I guess I liked the movie because I felt that I could relate to the character.
Yeah.. I’d love to watch it again too!