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It looks like I’m going to have a pretty busy month ahead at work. My colleague in the same unit is going for his 6 months Diploma in Public Admin on the 18th. A program that I myself went through a few years back. That’s 6 months of gruelling hard work for him (with the diploma program) and me (having to cover up his duties). Double duty for moi which will ofcourse be compensated with a third of his salary. However, it has not been totally decided yet by the bosses. So I’ll just wait and see. Keeping a positive mind about it all the while.

Meanwhile on my future plannings, I have been thinking alot about doing my masters in London lately. I keep envisioning myself taking up the courses, going through my daily life as a student and with my husband and son. I’ve planned where we’ll live, the routes I’ll take to Uni, and even what brand of formula milk and diapers I’ll buy for my son there:P For now I’m waiting for the brochures I requested to arrive (may take 6 weeks or more) and for scholarship offer announcement to be made.

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First and fore most, I must thank fathersez for bringing this to my attention. If it weren’t for him, I probably wouldn’t have thought about posting on this in the first place.

Apparently it seems that a small error is encountered at certain times when subscribing to my feed. I need the help of other fellow kind hearted bloggers/readers/friends to test out my RSS feeds (this is by no means a trick to get you to subscribe!) and possibly report back to this entry. Thanks so much! I truly appreciate your assistance in this matter. Hoping to get this issue resolved in a matter of time:)

cheers!!

P.S. Also, please try subscribing using my RSS feed buttons on my bottom right hand panel. Thanks again!

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When you’re feeling good, the world smiles at you. The sun shines, the birds sing, you see smiling faces everywhere. Good, happy emotions are contagious! That’s how I feel today. This morning everything seem to be alright. I’m willing for it to be the same throughout.

I find prayers, zikir and reciting the al-Quran helps alot with the process of  finding answers to any issues. After all, who better to turn to when in time of need than God the al-Mighty. Thank you Allah s.w.t..

To me, sometimes it is better to keep silent about certain matters rather then discussing it out loud. Being silent does not mean you’re not doing anything. I remain silent, but my subconscious is silently communicating to the parties involved. I focus and let my subconscious do the talking, coaching and counselling. When sensitive issues are involved and you can’t find the right words to say, this particular method works well for me. You can do it anytime without the other party consciously knowing. You’re reaching out to their subconscious, sending out good vibes, warm emotions.

Embrace them with happy thoughts, pray for their happiness, let them know through thought waves that you care about them and want the best for them. And they will come to know of it. Because you send them good vibes, they’ll feel your warmth and you may find they’re faces light up when you show up in front of them.

Think positive thoughts of others and you’ll have others thinking healthy thoughts of you too!

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It’s such a beautiful day outside. The sun is shining brightly against the stunning, blue skies and to me signifying a cheery, beautiful day. But there’s something tugging at my heart. I don’t want to focus on it for fear that it’ll expand and become bigger. But it’s an issue I’ve been struggling to resolve. I don’t wish to display dirty laundry here..but I’m stuck and I have to admit that I need help. But who to get help from? I’ve been running a list in my head. None deemed appropriate. I need someone who can advise without having any emotions attached to it. I need to talk to someone who is wise and fair. The Prophet Muhammad S.A.W… how I miss you.. your teachings that’s been passed on. I must dig into them. But I feel too emotional.

I know this is not me acting what I preach. Didn’t I mention only a few weeks ago that we shouldn’t be telling others our problems. Still I am forced to make an exemption for this one. It’s a bit complex. So I ask you dear readers, what do you do when 2 of the people you care about most hate each other? Ok, so maybe hate is a way too harsh word. The thing is, these two people are more alike in nature than they’d ever know. I’ve noticed this way back. So why do two people who are so alike unable to get along with each other? Each have their own ego. One trying to get control over the other. The other trying to break free and just live a life.

I’ve been getting this idea that they both have some unsettled emotional past and are hanging on to it a bit too tight. Causing each to have delusional thoughts about the other. I just feel caught. They’re both accusing me for causing this tension. Me? And all I’m trying to do is to get them to make peace with each other. I try to make each one happy. I can only give so much.. What do they want from me? Do I not give them each enough love? Do I not provide the necessary financial support whether back in the past or now. Am I actually a burden to them?

I hope not… I’ve bought insurance.. so if anything were to happen to me, they’d both get something from me…

Was it a thing in the past that I’d done that’s catching up with me now?

am I being punished for it?

Things couldn’t be any worst. But I remember reading somewhere, (or was it in one my SU motivational audios?) that when you think things are at it’s worst, you are actually closest to achieving your goals. You just have to hang on, keep going.. keep striving..and you will reach your destination..the pot of gold.. I want to believe in this so much. That’s why I’m still pushing ahead in life. Doing the best I can. Making the best of the situation. Seeing the light in the dark tunnel.

I’m just going to keep on going until I succeed..

Some people just run away from their problems. It’s tempting. But it wouldn’t solve anything. I say, face the situation with a brave face. With confidence and God’s blessing, the solution will come. There is a way.. or so I tell myself..

And no..it’s not about my parents’ marriage.. they’re still happily married. More like, the new mother and the new son (still unable to get acquainted).

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My sister in-law is leaving for Birmingham, England this Friday to pursue her degree in interior design. Together with her husband, they’ll be starting a new living in a land foreign to them. They’re excited and who wouldn’t be? I, myself am looking forward to furthering my masters overseas too. Although I’ve practically spent my primary school years in different parts the world, the thought of spending 2 more years in another country gives me a rush.

All this while I’ve been abroad with my family, enjoying the luxuries and privileges of my father’s status as a diplomat. My dad’s retired from it all. But as a family, we hold those memories very fondly in our hearts. When and if I do further my masters elsewhere, it’ll be with my new family - my husband and son. And we’ll totally be responsible for each other. It’s scary, yet thrilling.

I choose Tokyo as my first choice of destination because I have experienced life there as a young child. From what I recall, the locals are friendly, polite and hardworking plus their surroundings immaculately clean . However, in Japan language could become a barrier. Where else, if I were to head to UK, it’d be more familiar territory. So yeah.. that’d be great too.

Hmm.. there’s alot to prepare before I can finally take off. First I would have to secure a place in the program at the University of my choice, then secure a government scholarship, next 3 months research method refresher course (compulsory for government scholars) and after that arrangements for passports, visas, accommodations etc. My husband and I are also planning to move to a new home before flying (we have our reasons). So I’d have to sell the current place and get a new loan for the new place. Phew! Alot to be done!

Other than that, there are medical concerns for my son’s condition. Whether or not he should undergo a heart op if need be (in Malaysia). He’ll be fine, Insya Allah. We always pray for his health and longevity. It’d be great if he could start pre-school in London. Then he’d have a cute accent too. Now, that is very desirable!

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Today’s such a cheerful happy day! Thanks to my boss for giving me a fantastic report! It’s a great feeling to be appreciated for all your hard work (smartly done so it was practically a breeze);) On days like these, I love my job. And I’m going to learn to love it more for the next 12 years or so.

People, I finally have my life planned out. It’s kinda comical in way.. It was just a few days ago that my life path was unclear despite the many goals I’ve set. However, just yesterday, I got it all sorted. It’s a wonderful feeling. Like a burden being lifted. I longer have to wander around listlessly searching for the perfect destiny. I now know which path I want to take. It’s got alot to do with the list I made in my previous post. And more than just that.

Yesterday, I’ve finally found a way to align my goals with my husband’s. I laid down both our goals side by side and made a time line of when we expect to achieve it. Prior to that, I’d discussed with my husband my idea and he totally agreed with it, saying that it’s all he ever wanted. When I found my real dreams/passion desire/goals, my husband found his too. It’s crystal clear now. We know exactly what we want to achieve. We’ve aligned our dreams with each other! Now this is real love;)

Another great discovery is that I’ve managed to will my ideal home into existence. God knows how I did it. I’ve been envisioning a particular house using the architect of my mind. I’ve been thinking of it day and night for several months already since I last read ‘The Secret’. And then just yesterday, BAM! It appeared out of cyberspace and starred me right in the face!! It was there on one of our local property directory! A not so new project in Damansara. My dream home revealed to me in motion!! They have a visual tour of the actual house. You probably won’t believe me if I say this but it’s true, the house is every bit as I imagined it to be - in layout, rooms, staircase everything! It sent shivers up my spine ( a pleasurable one ofcourse). This is the law of attraction unfolding before my eyes. Although it took several months to make an appearance, it finally did in life colour! I’m just ecstatic about it!! I’m itching to paste the link here but I just don’t want to ruin this personal moment for me. Next step is to actually having it firmly in my grasp. You wouldn’t believe it’s cost! But achievable if my mind says so.. phew!

Have a brilliant day everyone!!

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I am taking the cue from Raymond of http://attractingyourgoals.com/ on using the power of attraction to attract what I desire in life. Today, I just want to list down a few (specific) things that I’d like to attract (these are only the few I’m willing to share):

1. 5 brilliant SU protege (my own);
2. A female yoga teacher for free yoga classes;
3. My ideal home;
4. An  MBA from Waseda University (my good friend Payjal gave me this idea so I’m contemplating it!);
5.  A chance to serve at our Malaysian Students’ Department in New Zealand or UK (this after after returning from Japan);
6. My ideal car;
7. For my marriage to be happier and more blissful;
8. A martial arts skill (extremely useful);
9. Retiring young and rich (at the age of 40 - too old? hmm. I might just be able to do it way earlier, God-willing)!

Heheh… btw. I’ve made a few changes to my new year goals. Didn’t think I’d have to so early on in the year. But that’s the best thing about having flexible goals. You get to change them to suit your current needs. That’s why it’s called a SMART goal!

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Amongst the necessary measures required to ensure I’ll reach my goals of achieving financial freedom is having my finances under control. So beginning first January 2008, I’ve taken to jotting down all my daily expenditures. This is a great exercise since it makes me more aware of where my money goes. By listing down my spendings, I actually end up spending less because I become more cautious of it and buy only what’s necessary.

I read in one finance blog (i think it was millionaire mommy next door’s) that controlling your finances means knowing the difference between what you need and what you desire (but don’t need). I’m happy to say that I’ve started to cultivate good spending habits. I won’t call myself a shopaholic anymore and I’m happy with this accomplishment!

This month, I’ve also started on another finance book - one that I’ve had on my book shelve for quite some time but only had the chance to read the first few chapters last weekend. The book I’m referring to is Robert Kiyosaki (of Rich Dad, Poor Dad fame)’s Retire Young, Retire Rich. This book reveals alot on using the power of leverage to accumulate wealth which I shall elaborate in another post.

Last weekend was a well spent family getaway at my inlaws’ new place in Tanjung Malim. They have a beautiful house nestled amidst the mountain side overlooking a beautiful lake garden. The air is clean and the view is spectacular! I could imagine our own family living there in one of those beautifully designed houses. It’ll definitely be ideal! Me working from home (or not having to work), being close to my loved ones and waking up every morning to a picturesque scenery and healthy living, breathing - fresh country air! It’ll be a dream come true..

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I have been thinking about it for the longest time. And I think it’s about time I put it out in the open. I want to give back to my university, faculty and lecturers as much as they have given to me by making my student journey an enriching one. If you’re reading this entry Dr. Rumaya and Prof. Rozumah, I would like to apologise for not taking up your offers to make me your protege. I was young, I had just graduated and I had a million of dreams to pursue. I just didn’t want to confine myself within the four walls of the faculty I had come to know so well and have grown so fond of. That was 5 years ago.

You would be proud to see where I am right now. But I want more then this and am still pursuing my real dreams to live my life as I want to. However, I also want to make a contribution to the faculty. Even though my career and family’s keeping me busy, the internet will make it possible for me to pull it through. So the contribution I’d like to make is this: I want to help inspire other students of the faculty to become the very best students. If there are students out there who have potential but are lacking motivation, bring them to me through my website. Let me guide them, support them to be the star students they can be.

During my student years, I benefited a lot from study groups. I shall discuss this in another post. I also discovered other tools necessary to become a successful student (academically). Sadly, I didn’t stay on long enough to pass on this knowledge I gained through my own experience and that of others. So now is a better time than ever to pass on those tools so that other students can benefit from it too.

Ok, hope my message will get through to the right people. I’m willing the Law of Attraction to be put into motion. All this God-willing.

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