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It’s funny how when my son’s awake I can think of a million things to do when he’s asleep. However, when he’s asleep I’m suddenly bored out of my mind.. is it that or do I just not know what to do first? I washed the dishes just now and have tidied the kitchen. I had my early dinner while checking out my facebook account - very addictive. Now I’m thinking, I should do some revision for the upcoming PTK exams (for government servants to be promoted). But I just feel a bit distracted. Firstly, the noise of the construction below our apartment is a tad deafening. Secondly, it’s late in the evening, a perfect moment for a stroll in the park. But I am home with a sleeping son and hubby’s at work.

But some time alone is good. I need to do alot of thinking. Need to use up more brain cells. I’ve been forgetting keys and other important stuff the past few days. So not me. Just distracted I guess. I admire people who are always on the go and ever so high spirited. I’ve reached some sort of wall and am finding it requires all my strength to climb through.

These days I feel I have alot of bitter medicine to swallow. Medicine that I’m not so sure will do me much good. Still I swallow it hole and feel myself aching even more. No, I’m not complaining. Life’s throwing me a curve ball and I’m taking it good. God won’t test you with anything you can’t take. He loves you for sure.

At work and at home, things sure could be better. I long for brighter days..

I’m sorry if this is not a ’success’ post. Yes, my dotcom site is meant to be some sort of success journal. But the journey to success is often not a straight path without obstacles. It’s how we manage to overcome barriers that makes us a stronger and more resilient person.

I sometimes wish I could really talk to someone who is unbiased. Someone who’d just listen with understanding. Sometimes I think I’ve found that person but after a few thoughts I often change my mind. When I was studying in one exclusive boarding school - back in those young old days, I used to surrender myself to counseling sessions. Why, because it felt good to talk to someone who wasn’t your age (teenage) but still understood what you were going through.

These days, as adults we have reservations. Counseling sessions are thought to only be for those who are problematic. You don’t want to be labeled as such so you avoid any sessions. Maybe, that’s one reason why I want to expand my knowledge in the field of psychology. To better understand myself as well as others and how we respond to situations as well as how to make things better.

Better, better, better. I want to be a better person today than I was yesterday and an even better person tomorrow.

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Ok, I admit, I have been putting off writing an entry. You must forgive me. The load at work is incredible. However, having attended an emotional management course, I am keeping my spirits up and still going strong. Over the past few days eversince I learned about communicating with the Supreme Powers, I have been able to find more peace within myself. I feel more relaxed and am able to keep up with the fast pace at work. Performing my daily prayers no longer feel like a ritual. It is becoming something that I look forward to. My chance to unload, rest my mind and display my gratitude to Allah. It is the time allocated for me to praise the Al-Mighty, ask Him for forgiveness, and to ask Him whatever good my heart desires. For it is He who listens and hears and answers your calls. I no longer recite prayers that are repetitive and memorised. I am now able to communicate with the Supreme Powers through my heart - all pure and sincere.

I am grateful for having been given the knowledge to practice this powerful form of communication. For if you cannot ‘talk’ to your Creator, you truly are at lost. He created you. He loves you and only wants the best for you. So you have to live by His rules. But He is also the most forgiving and the one who listens and grants wishes. Bring yourself closer to Him. He is the most worthy of your praise and the most deserving of your fear.

I shall enlighten my readers on NLP later as was requested by Fauzi. For now, I must return to the duties at hand.

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Hi everyone,

Today’s been a pretty hectic week. Apart from having extra responsibilities at work (I’m covering for my boss), I had to attend a 4 day course at Port Dickson (while still having to complete office assignments - thank goodness for the internet). But I’m glad I agreed to attend the course. It was one on emotional management and covered topics in psychology which I absolutely love! I’m thinking of doing a MSc in Psychology now.. Yeah.. probably the best option for me, a field that I am very familiar with, enjoy reading about and would love to learn more about and master at .

I took my son with me to Port Dickson with my mom in tow. It was necessary so he wouldn’t miss his feeding sessions. Despite having to attend and focus on the course day and night, nurse my son in between and stay up late to finish off office reports, I still managed to enjoy myself and benefit from a well-deserved break from the office envirionment.

Port Dickson is a lovely beach town. The place we stayed at had it’s own private beach which stretched for miles. The waters were beautiful. My husband who came to stay with us on my second last day took many gorgeous pictures of the place. I’ll probably put it up here once I get him to resize it.

I learned alot from the emotional management course. The lecturers for the course were 3 amazing personalities in the field of psychology. All certified counselors. They kept me at the edge of my seat throughout. The topics I enjoyed most were on:

- Brain Gym

- NLP

- Brain functions

-Spiritual Quotient

-Boss Psychology

and many more were taught.

The day after we returned back home, we decided to visit the international book fair held at PWTC. I was delighted to find a book on Emotional Spiritual Quotient written by an Indonesian Author. I bought the English version and have started reading a few pages of it. I find it very refreshing as it interweaves the Islamic perspective with the conventional. A point of view that I am so keen to dig in.

Ok, that’s all the time I have for now. Will update more tomorrow.

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I’ve never heard of Derren Brown and his clever tricks until Saif over at Saif Improvement put up one You Tube video on him. My brother who had read Saif’s post decided to look for more videos on Derren. Just thought I’d share with you his favourite (hint: my bro is a chess player):

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It was my youngest brother who introduced me to Yuna. We weren’t formally introduced. He just played me her videos on YouTube. I don’t know much about Yuna. But from the videos I’ve watched, I can tell she’s one talented musician - she writes, composes and sings her own songs. She also plays the guitar and piano beautifully.

And did I tell you that she’s Malaysian? She’s also a muslim who covers her head (tudung wearing). Err.. good role model? Regardless of that, I am truly impressed with her song writing, singing and piano/guitar skills. Her passion shines through her music. It is in music that she has talents, passion and has put in effort. Thus making her successful and popular fast!

I don’t actually like to encourage idolising musicians. But I am just so impressed by her, I’m letting it pass. So here’s Yuna, Malaysia’s version of Marie Digby (I hope I don’t offend anyone - just my take) :

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I won! I won! I won! Wow..truly amazing! I am so happy and grateful to JoeTech and all sponsors for the fab prize! Thanks to Lan for alerting me about it too :). I’d just gotten back from a refreshing educational day at the national zoo and was greeted by this great news.

I am thankful that I’d joined entrecard and gotten acquainted with JoeTech and other savvy friends. Saif, if you are reading this, and if you haven’t done so already I’d suggest you put up an entrecard on your blog (only if you want to buddy). Really helps to get more visitors to your site and more opportunities to stumble upon valuable blogs/website.

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Cheers everyone!!

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Oh yes. I did mention I was going write another post about what other things I’m thinking of attracting into my life. Hmm.. lemme see.. there’s the website on crystals that I’ve forever been wanting to set up. It’s for a friend who’s in the crystal/semi-precious stone business. There’s also the website on baby product review in Malaysia that at first seems like a workable idea.. but I may not be the first to have one.

There’s also this intense desire in me to be able to spend much more time with my son. And taking the load of my parents from having to babysit him. It’s my very strong WHY behind my goals of achieving financial freedom. If I can become financially free before the age of 40 or better in 5 years time, I would only have to miss out on 6 years of my son’s life. And have many more years to catch up with him, God-willing. I pray he’ll live a long, healthy and fulfilling life filled with the best and happiest life experiences his parents can only provide him with. This is my goal. I’m imagining the scene in the secret where when someone wants something, he/she would hold on to the desired end results in his/her mind and the waves of attraction would appear, working the magic!

Here’s to my Hariz!!

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It’s such a beautiful day outside. The sun is shining brightly against the stunning, blue skies and to me signifying a cheery, beautiful day. But there’s something tugging at my heart. I don’t want to focus on it for fear that it’ll expand and become bigger. But it’s an issue I’ve been struggling to resolve. I don’t wish to display dirty laundry here..but I’m stuck and I have to admit that I need help. But who to get help from? I’ve been running a list in my head. None deemed appropriate. I need someone who can advise without having any emotions attached to it. I need to talk to someone who is wise and fair. The Prophet Muhammad S.A.W… how I miss you.. your teachings that’s been passed on. I must dig into them. But I feel too emotional.

I know this is not me acting what I preach. Didn’t I mention only a few weeks ago that we shouldn’t be telling others our problems. Still I am forced to make an exemption for this one. It’s a bit complex. So I ask you dear readers, what do you do when 2 of the people you care about most hate each other? Ok, so maybe hate is a way too harsh word. The thing is, these two people are more alike in nature than they’d ever know. I’ve noticed this way back. So why do two people who are so alike unable to get along with each other? Each have their own ego. One trying to get control over the other. The other trying to break free and just live a life.

I’ve been getting this idea that they both have some unsettled emotional past and are hanging on to it a bit too tight. Causing each to have delusional thoughts about the other. I just feel caught. They’re both accusing me for causing this tension. Me? And all I’m trying to do is to get them to make peace with each other. I try to make each one happy. I can only give so much.. What do they want from me? Do I not give them each enough love? Do I not provide the necessary financial support whether back in the past or now. Am I actually a burden to them?

I hope not… I’ve bought insurance.. so if anything were to happen to me, they’d both get something from me…

Was it a thing in the past that I’d done that’s catching up with me now?

am I being punished for it?

Things couldn’t be any worst. But I remember reading somewhere, (or was it in one my SU motivational audios?) that when you think things are at it’s worst, you are actually closest to achieving your goals. You just have to hang on, keep going.. keep striving..and you will reach your destination..the pot of gold.. I want to believe in this so much. That’s why I’m still pushing ahead in life. Doing the best I can. Making the best of the situation. Seeing the light in the dark tunnel.

I’m just going to keep on going until I succeed..

Some people just run away from their problems. It’s tempting. But it wouldn’t solve anything. I say, face the situation with a brave face. With confidence and God’s blessing, the solution will come. There is a way.. or so I tell myself..

And no..it’s not about my parents’ marriage.. they’re still happily married. More like, the new mother and the new son (still unable to get acquainted).

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My sister in-law is leaving for Birmingham, England this Friday to pursue her degree in interior design. Together with her husband, they’ll be starting a new living in a land foreign to them. They’re excited and who wouldn’t be? I, myself am looking forward to furthering my masters overseas too. Although I’ve practically spent my primary school years in different parts the world, the thought of spending 2 more years in another country gives me a rush.

All this while I’ve been abroad with my family, enjoying the luxuries and privileges of my father’s status as a diplomat. My dad’s retired from it all. But as a family, we hold those memories very fondly in our hearts. When and if I do further my masters elsewhere, it’ll be with my new family - my husband and son. And we’ll totally be responsible for each other. It’s scary, yet thrilling.

I choose Tokyo as my first choice of destination because I have experienced life there as a young child. From what I recall, the locals are friendly, polite and hardworking plus their surroundings immaculately clean . However, in Japan language could become a barrier. Where else, if I were to head to UK, it’d be more familiar territory. So yeah.. that’d be great too.

Hmm.. there’s alot to prepare before I can finally take off. First I would have to secure a place in the program at the University of my choice, then secure a government scholarship, next 3 months research method refresher course (compulsory for government scholars) and after that arrangements for passports, visas, accommodations etc. My husband and I are also planning to move to a new home before flying (we have our reasons). So I’d have to sell the current place and get a new loan for the new place. Phew! Alot to be done!

Other than that, there are medical concerns for my son’s condition. Whether or not he should undergo a heart op if need be (in Malaysia). He’ll be fine, Insya Allah. We always pray for his health and longevity. It’d be great if he could start pre-school in London. Then he’d have a cute accent too. Now, that is very desirable!

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I am currently taking a Success University course on street smart networking marketing. This particular course is based on a book by Robert Butwin. Here’s a quote I took from Butwin on network marketing:

“Five is really the magic number in our business. This is similar to a military model, which discovered that the optimal utilization of staff officers occurred with groups of five. In Network Marketing, five is also the optimal number of first level leaders.”

Now I understand why Zamri only chose the lucky 5 to become his protege! And it is also the same reason why Success University will only advance you to Counselor level after you’ve enrolled 5 dedicated members on your team. It is these first five players that I have to focus my attention on and get them to duplicate the formula of our mentors’/my own success so that they too will rise to great heights. And after I’ve trained my own five precious team members well, they will in turn train their own set of 5 each. So it’s five in a team at time that will lead more and more people to achieve the success they desire in this business!!

Wow!! I currently have two dedicated members on my team. So I need 3 more and my team is complete. The five on my team will get training from me and my mentor, Zamri. I actually already have my own list of who should be my other 3 team players. But if you think you can beat them to it, then take action now! Click on my Success University banner or visit my SU page through the tab above. I will dedicate myself to this training. I will make the people on my team successful!!

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